Friday, August 23, 2013

Yet again

Blessed be, everyone. I've had another dream. In this one, I've learned to tell the signs, in nature and in my garden, of when I was pregnant. A collection of mushrooms would grow a certain way. It would start off as one central one, and she would swell up, having others start growing around her of an assortment of sizes, in a circle around her. Then some would grow FROM her... In the dream, I tried to take a picture of it to show Jason, but I guess it had sprung up from my phone (or what used to be my phone) because a large diamond crystal (clear) sprang up from inside of the central mushroom. It blew my mind. So I had tried to Skype call him on my laptop to show him. Then I woke up...

I....hmm. I'm still trying to make sense of this..

Thursday, August 8, 2013

more little ones...

Yesterday, i had the implanon taken out finally; it was time to. for those who don't know, the implanon is a form of birth control that stays in your arm for 3 to 5 years, depending on what you get, and is a small rod that you could hold between your forefingers.
now, i've been bedridden all day yesterday since my appt, and i've had a dream when i woke up. about children, again. the second dream. but this is more precise. i saw days, dates, numbers, dialation numbers, down to the decimal. i saw the month (may 30-31), i got the feeling of twin boys. and my soon to be husband was right there with me, telling me to calm and to relax and stuffs as it happened. i saw the hospital room and everything...7.5 i think was one of the dialation numbers...and i woke before 8:15 am this morning...

jason says that we'll take it one step at a time, and my Sister says that I can at least prepare mentally for them...

i'm just...i dunno...not surprised as much anymore???

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Rings

is it bad luck to wear the ring now? since he didn't put it on my finger?
my mum said that it was...
but i don't feel like anything is wrong with wearing it now...it came in the mail today...
if anything, i feel like i'm the one doing it because i'll be putting his ring on him when he gets here...
when i put it on, it warms within seconds and i feel it syncing up with my body...and it feels strange if i take it off again...

Friday, August 2, 2013

Hair

Wavy Milk Silver Lolita Princess wig came today UuU
May need to wear it a few times to get used to it. But it's still a bit off from my fae form hair =w=

BUT there is still one or two on the way ^w^

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Mind Just Exploded

Shortly after choosing some baby names, i fell asleep. and soon in my sleep, i dreamt of a child. my child. of one of the names we had chosen. when we came up with the names, i got the feel of some of them, like what sign they would be born under, or how they would be as they grew. but for one of the names, Aisling, i felt that, if not the oldest child, she would be the oldest daughter...but i feel like she will be the first born...

i had a dream with her in it, 6 years old, and i was showing some motherly love and protection...

the time i woke from the dream was about 7:15 am this morning (August 1); I was born at 7:15 pm on April 15. i talked with my husband to be about it, and he said "well, honey, you are more intuitive than i am...so maybe...."

then one of his guardians (likes to speak in riddles) said that if she would be born on this day and time at some point, that means that she'll be conceived sometime in november...

i come back stateside for a little bit in november, to finish packing the rest of my things to move to japan. november is also my husband to be's birthday month

and if this ALL is the case, then this gives root to some of the previous dreams that i've had of he and i visiting my family during christmas and us trying to figure out how to tell them that i'm pregnant.

so, after all of this speculating and thinking, all i say to him is, "the signs, man...ALL THESE FRIGGIN SIGNS!!!!"

handfasting; marriage; wedding; babies; children; surprises...for the past year....


am i overanalyzing? what say you?